It has been over a year since she left... 1 year 8 months and 21 days to be exact... but time has yet to heal the wound in my heart, when she left so suddenly... Labels: Mama
1st Tear
The red sky meant it was time to go back home after a long day at school. But as I made my way up to the second floor to get my book back from a friend, i did not expect the life-changing event that I was about to experience.
Ever since my days in Temasek Poly, I've always had a problem with opening the number locks on the school lockers. It would take me ages to get it open. No, to be exact, I was never able to open them no matter how hard i tried, even though Karin can open them easily right after i give up. But after I entered SMU, i finally managed to "crack the code".
As i entered the code and spun the lock, my phone rang. Mummy was calling. Curious on why my mum was calling at a time like this, I picked up and uttered, "Hello?!?". Mummy then said, "I am going to visit mama, mama is in hospital".
"Huh?, what happened? How come she is hospitalised?" I questioned, concerned and confused. "She went for her check-up today and doctor wanted to admit her to do a thorough check-up, he said that it is wierd that she suddenly lost so much weight, so I will go home after visiting her, you settle your own dinner ok?" My mum replied. So I agreed, hung up the phone and proceeded to get my book out from the locker before making my way home.
When I reached home, Daddy was watching his Korean Drama on cable and i ploughed myself into the seat next to him, like i did everyday. Time went by and we both laughed at the funny parts, cursed and sweared at the characters we hated, teared with it was time to be sad...
Just then, the familiar sound of the keys dangling from the keychain, entering the lock, turning in the lock ringed into my ears. Mummy and Jie Jie was back. As i turned my head to greet them, what came into the light in the living room were 2 faces with tears flowing down their cheeks. They had been crying.
Curious on what happened, i asked, "What happened?". But mummy didn't utter a word, instead she started crying again. I turned to my sister, waiting for an answer and that was when she said the 3 words i did not expect, "mama has cancer".
My mind went blank.
I then proceeded to give my mum a hug, that was the only thing i could do. She then added to the news by saying, "doctor says she only has 3 more months to live...." It was then that i wailed like a baby...